Sunday, February 13, 2005

Angsty teen.

Yuancai - I didn't mean to suan you. Really. At least not about arts. I just like to chat with you about football. How's Liverpool doing? (:

Yesterday was quite a busy day for me.

Soccer in the morning, lunch treat in the afternoon, queensway, then class party.

So phone throwing competitions are the latest. Amusing.

Lionel's very very very nice (:! We should all make bets with him more often. Does anybody want to bet on Bellion?

I got a pair of shoes, but I still need to get a pair for street soccer :/ My friend wants me to go participate in this competition (May/June) with her and her friends. But I'm quite skeptical about it lah. I think the age category is open and then I don't even know the rest of the players and we've never trained together before also. I heard the challenge is quite tough also ): but I already agreed so I'll just see what happens. Dunno how she's going to arrange the trainings too, was supposed to have one yesterday actually. No loss anyway, can make friends with fellow females who like football (:. Oh and Cheese is very mean. He called me retarded ):!

Class party was a flop. Less than half the class turned up. Out of the 10 or so (out of 28) who came, 2 of them were in the 'cool' gang. And a lot of them either came late or left early. Only 2 girls came and Junli came late. And it wasn't really a class party... the whole 'cool' gang came also, the host's cool church friends, and the cool bowlers. So it was quite sian. Matthew was quite smart not to come. Then 3 of us decided to go catch a movie around 9+. I wanted to watch racing stripes. Its quite good (: very funny and you don't need to think very hard to understand the plot.

It seems that every party thingy I've been to since JC has been crashed. Somehow. Always by the same people. -shrugs-

I feel quite angsty and a;ldskfjaeidadx up now. There's a lot of things about JC that irks me, and there's nothing I can do about it to change it. It's like stepping into this gloomy looking place and there's a banner that says "Welcome to Reality".

There seems to be this growing importance to look and act cool. Sometimes the whole notion of cool is not really as cool as they think it is. (Certainly not as cool as Man utd beating arsenal 4-2 in any case) . I don't really think its cool to drink and go pubbing/clubbing also.

A lot of people have been saying bad things behind each other's backs too. People like to say stuff about how they can't stand somebody and yadda yadda, and I think it happens quite often. I don't really get much of it because I'll go "whyyy, don't be so mean" and then the conversation diverts. I know a lot of it still goes on though, and I think its really really mean. What if people were bitching and saying bad stuff about you behind your back? Everything is all so fake and you can't trust anybody. Have to get used to this kind of culture though.

I think its quite ironic that the MBTI thing says I'm a thinking type, yet I'm so affected by all of this shit. I should really just go work hard and study my socks off. heck about the rest of the world. I really haven't felt this horrible for so long.

Ok I think I'm over-dramatizing the whole thing. There are some cool things still... like a handful of nice people around the school who does not partake in all this jc shit. I get to play soccer more often than I used to in rgs. I really like soccer cos' it just takes my mind of everything else, and when you watch those exciting matches you can just feel the adrenaline pumping through your body and its really really fun to play it too. Soccer is just about one of the best things on earth.

Oh yeah. I have the Mulan VCD but its p***ted. To all those who havent watched it, you're really deprived. Same goes for those who've never watched Lion King, Lion King II, Little Mermaid, Aladdin, Lilo and Stitch, etc. ESPECIALLY Lion King (both!). It would be an abomination not to watch it.

Nat spoke at 12:38 PM

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